Another month has come n passed....Its already Mid of February..

Valentine day has passed~

Although I was with you, You are in front of me..watching the tears come out from your eyes..

My heart still doubting those emotions that I could feel from you..

The wound never been healed, they are not scars...They bleed everyday...

Forgiving You is really hard for me..I doubt and feel suspicious everyday..

Jealousy always around me....Im tired my dear..

Im always2 wondering if our  relationship can last any longer..if our relationship can work out anymore..

I miss the old time where I had my confidence over our relationship...but now even You said that you love me..Im doubt the truth behind those words...

Although I already told you on what I feels about us..I still feel like is useless..

Since like you dont get it...

Deep in my heart..I know crying everyday is not the solution...yes~ Im have been thinking to leave you to solve this problem..but I never can do that...There so much memory between us...been thinking and praying everyday...hoping this will end soon before its too late...

I wish I could held your hand as long as I can...

Giving both of us another chance..

Truly hoping that you will not wasting the chance that I have given to you..

2013, bad starting, but I know as time goes on, slowly It will change.
I just need to be patient and stronger..

2012..It teach me a lot of thing
I need to become stronger in order to survive in this world..
Im become more mature..
Rational and responsible.

In the month of November n December,
Jesus put me on test..I fall down,hurt myself,
It was painful..
De most beatiful experience but yet terrifying me
He also gave me de most wonderful thing in my life..
Im know I cant surrender..I have to pass this test..
A man told me this
"When U feel n thought u in pain.remember that Jesus suffered even more when He carry His cross to the Golgota, He suffered the largest pain for us"
And I keep those words in my heart.keep praying n asking strength to moving on from Him
My heart feel more stronger n calm every time after my prayer.
I almost forget prayer is one of the sources of healing.

Althought I started my 2013 so badly, I have confidence that I can overcome it

"Jesus always walk with side by side,He never leave us. He is our best friend"
By keeping those in my mind..I know I will doing better and better...